dabombdigity008

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2007-05-10T00:08:17Z

foooour more days!!!
Im kind of excited...but i know things arent gonna be the same. aaahhhhh whateva.

one month left of schooooooll!!! Thats still kind of a long time, but hey.

uhhh...lets see...nohting new or exciting is really going on in my life. well thats all.

guubyyyyyy

LIndsey

absolutely pointless

2007-04-27T00:47:07Z

AAAAHHHHHHH lets seeee...17 more days till im ungrounded!!! at least i think its 17, im too lazy to count. uuuhhh...lets seeeee whats new with meee??? I cant really think of anything inparticular. I'm actually pretty bored right now...and im RARELY ever bored. aaahhhh i just want to get out of this house buuuuut like i said, only 17 more days.
hmmm i dont really have anything interesting to talk about right now...
oooo im sooo happy i just typed that entire thing without looking down,
i am soooooo boooooooooored. ooookay...well...see ya

Lindsey

so here's the deal...

2007-04-22T22:43:56Z

aaaaallllright...well ive been in a pretty good mood lately. Being grounded isnt so bad. Im trying to make the best of it by getting alot of things done. Sooooo far this weekend ive mostly been cleaning and orgainizing. That makes me feel good. i read "a child called it" yesterday. I didnt really like it, but it makes me feel accomplished. I drew a little bit, and im about to do some yoga because i havent done it in like 5 weeks =/

Sooooooo i have some "summer resloutions" that i'm going to try my best to keep up with.
First off, im not gonna let myself be lazy. I'm not going to sleep past 10 because when i sleep in, i feel like ive completely wasted the day.I want to spend as much time as i possibly can with freinds. Im going to be doing something every single day. If its not with friends, then it has to be something worthwhile, like draw a picture or clean or something. I gonna try to do yoga everyday to increase my flexibility. I'm also going to start eating healthier and more often, because i have horrible eating habits. I'm going to try really hard to increase my driving skills haha and become less scared to drive. I'm not gonna do aaaaanything that might get me in any amount of trouble. I think that if i do these things, i will feel better all around. i might not be able to keep up with al of them, but i can try my best.

aaahhhh i feel so good about myself right now...i feel like i could do soooo much. In a way, being grounded was exactly what i needed. I needed to slow down, and focus on certain things. I'm becoming less scared about my future because im actually working toward something that I want to do. I'm starting to think about myself more and not being a pushover and doing things only to make other people happy. Not that i still dont a little, because there's nothing i love more than to make people happy, its the greatest feeling in the world. Ive just come to the realization that just because i do something for myself, that doesnt mean im being selfish, if you know what i mean.

dreeeeams

2007-04-18T02:10:53Z

hello hello hello.
sooooooo ive been having alot of really weird dreams latley...they all happen where im like half awake, so they seem extremely real. Like last night at about 3 or so, I woke up talking on my phone, crying. On the other line, it was just "If you'd like to make a call, please hang up and try again...". BUT I thought I was talking to my grandpa, that lived in Tennessee, who died about 5 years ago. In my dream we had a really good conversation, though. He told me that he was really proud of me and my brother, and that he would see us soon at my brothers graduation. When I was little, i had a lot of freckles, and he would tell me that i need to stay out of the rain because i'm getting rust spots. In my dream, he kept saying little things like that, which added to the realism of it. He told me how much he loved me and that he wished we didnt live so far away, and that he regrets not being here to see me grow up. We talked about my mom and the things she's been through in her life. and in the dream, i was just sitting on the phone crying...because for some reason, like I knew he was dead, but he didnt? so when i woke up i was just sobbing...i dont really know how to explain exactly how i felt.
Then, at 6, when my alarm went off, i was in the most amazing mood. I had a totally different attitude toward everything.Like, i've been really really really happy all day. I have to say, that was the single most amazing dream I have ever had.

That's all for now,
Lindsey

dabombdigity008 @ 2007-04-14T21:07:00

2007-04-15T01:50:14Z

"If I Dont Say This Now I Will Surely Break
As Im Leaving The One I Want To Take
Forgive The Urgency, But Hurry Up And Wait
My Heart Has Started To Seperate
oooh, be my baby
i'll look after you... "

Sooo all of today, I've been moping around in my pj's, watching an americas next top model marathon, and crying with a bottomless carton of strawberry ice cream. I'm pathetic.
Let's rewind for a second...Thursday night I got caught,by the cops, sneaking out...and my brother toooootally covered for me. I thought i was actually gonna get away with it...Buuuuuuut thanks to modern technology, I've discovered that even after you delete a message, it still saves under deleted messages.COOOOL. So, in conclusions, I'm grounded from my friends for a month. I know, i know...you may be saying "Lindsey, Lindsey...calm down, Its only a month you'll get over it." but it's more than that to me...to loose my parents trust is devastating, plus there's alot of other things going on in my life right now. aaand im missing someone very very very much right now, and every single song i listen to is sad =[
buuuuut I'm a big girl, and I can get through it. I dont want to make this into a piiiiity party.
On the plus side, this will give me more time to focus on school and try to find a job...I'm thinking that the summer program would be really fun, because i love kids =]
well,I'm feeling a little better now. Thanks for reading.

muuuuuaaaahhhhhhhh
love love looooove ya,
Lindsey

dabombdigity008 @ 2007-04-04T22:05:00

2007-04-05T02:52:30Z

well hello, it's been awhile.
Let's see what is new since the last time? hmmm...well, my lifes been going pretty good. Schools alright, its getting easier to tolerate. uuhh...i guess i'll start at two weeks ago??? well 2 saturdays ago snooooom had a show a skateland. then, sunday i had this college thing. eww. I dont even want to talk about that. then school school school school school blah blah blah...Friday Mel's house was insane, but everythings ok. hmm...saturday i helped Brandon, Trevor, Georg, and Frank with CD's. They looked really cool.buuuut I cant so much tell you about the rest of my day =X =] suuunday, snom had another show at Token Lounge. thaaaat was cool, too. They sold all of their CD's. eeehhh...mooonday, i think? i hungout with Georg =] and then went to Brandons.Tuesday??? nothing important. hmmm...today, noooothing...oh, man, i have three tests tomorrow =[ buuuuuuuuuut
Spring Break Starts Friday!!!!!!!
aaaaahhhh...That's suuuper exciting.
hmmm..oh yah tomorrow im cutting and dying my hair for the last time until the end of summer, by then it should be prettttyyyyy long.
well i really dont have much more to say, I'm going to bed.

gooooodnight =]

dabombdigity008 @ 2007-03-21T23:12:00

2007-03-22T03:13:19Z

Why does making someone jealous, give people so much joy? I mean, i guess its the fact that the reason someone becomes jealous in the first place is only because they care. And everyone likes the sense of knowing someone cares. sooo i guess i answered my own question. I just, i dont know. I hate making people jealous and i hate being jealous even more. I dont see how going out of your way to make someone jealous could actually bring someone happiness. i dont know, maybe thats just me.

buuuuuuut anyway, I feel dead, emotionally. My parents did a pretty good job with that. I cant wait to move out. I need to spend more time with friends. i mean, its not that i dont, already, i just really hate being home. thats a really sad statement... "home" is somewhere you go to be yourself, where you can be comfortable. Thats not how i feel one bit, and i dont think i ever will.
gggeeeeeeeeezzzzzzzz.

well, its almost thursday, which means its just about friday...and thats always good news. hmmm...lets see looks like ive got a lot planned for the weekend, lets hope it all works out. I'm especially excited for saturday, buuuut thats kind of a secret why =X

welllll...youve probably had enough of my rambling sooo im off to bed or something.
Lindsey

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2007-03-15T02:32:02Z

hmmm...today...let's see...
Didnt really do much. I'm a little sad, but I don't know why.
I just got home, i decided that i wanted to drive around for awhile and listen to music. I needed some alone time. It felt good, but of course, every song was sad and now im a little gloomy. buuut I'll get over it. man, i've been complaining way too much lately.

WOW. major mood swing.
isn't it funny how certain people can do that to you? im really happy now.i know, weird...but my moods are changed very easily, and i cant stay mad for long.

eeehhhh...nothing too interesting.

xoxoxo

beautiful day.

2007-03-14T02:13:17Z

Honestly, How amazing was the weather today?

It put me in such a good mood. It's funny how the weather can alter your mood so much. I don't even have a reason to be happy, i just am. I actually have about 435847375 things that should be bringing my day down, but they aren't. After I was done with the ACT's i couldn't help but be happy because it was just that beautiful out. Too bad i couldnt really enjoy it as much as i would have liked. I'm trying to bring up my grades by actually doing work. It's not turning out as planned. =[ I really hate school. buuuuuuut all i have to do is get through this year and next year with be a breeeeeeeze. WOW. that gets me reeeaaalllyy excited for summer. aaaaahhhhhhh, oh man, i cant wait. =]

hmmm...tomorrow me and mel are going to Salvation Army and then watching Americas next top model =O. I missed it last week, and i almost went into a deep depression. oooh, man, i just remembered that we have those dang MME's tomorrow.

god damn, this thing wont let me upload pictures!!! =[ ooooh well.
weeeellll that's about all.
xoxoxo

eeehhhh...

2007-03-13T02:01:55Z

Today was an okay day. Nothing great happened.I had the worst headache, and i threw up. Gross. But im ok, now.

God damn, stupid ACT's tomorrow.

oh, well, i just want to get them over with. My grades a slipping, i should probably do something about that.
Weeeelllll, this weekend should be pretty fun, usually is. Hopefully going shopping with my mom. Haven't dont that in awhile, kinda excited for that.

buuuuut i have to be "well rested" for tomorrow. so, i'm out.

jklfjcjhlgfjhy

2007-03-12T02:08:06Z

heeeellloooo. I decided to make one of these after reading Melissa's, and ,well, here I am now.

I had a really weird weekend. I had some pretty strong bonding moments, and they meant alot to me. I cant even describe the way i feel right now. I'm kind of sad, but its like a happy sad.

I dont know. I guess I've been thinking alot lately about alot of different things. These changes that i've been going through are amazing. It seems like i'm slowly being able to trust people again.And love. It's almost as if i forgot how to love. I feel a little weird saying that, but its truly how i feel. Getting close to people is becoming alot easier, I'm actually becoming dependent on friends. Which is something i've never experienced. I always had "friends" that i hungout with every once in a while, but i was just BORED with my life. I needed a new scene, new people, just something new. well, i found it and im holding onto it with every last strand. If i ever lost what i have now, i honestly dont know what i would do. But i dont want to think that way right now.

well, anyway. I had a good weekend. Me and melissa dyed my hair yesterday. We bleached a strip of it and dyed a black star. I love it. then, today i dyed parts of it black. Not too sure if i like it, but whatev.